Wednesday, December 28, 2011

The Vet

My stinky dog went to the vet today. She has had a very sore leg and so my husband loaded her in his truck today along with the kids, he took her to the vet. I chose to wait at home, because I knew she was in safe hand with my husband and I wasn't sure I could go. She had to stay with the vet for a few hours, they needed to take a few pictures of her leg, so we didn't know right away what the problem was.
When the vet called, I felt all tense inside. She talked to my husband. When he got off the phone he said that stinky dog probably, but not for sure, has arthritis in her leg and the vet can give her pain meds.  We all piled in the truck and headed over to pick her up.  There is still a small chance that our dear dog has bone cancer, but I am praying that is not the case. She was very pleased to see all of us, and we were happy to take her out of the vets office and get her back home. She is now laying on the bed beside me, looking a bit sad and not her normal self. Her visit to the vet was distressing and exhausting.
I had a visit like this today as well. I've been working on something that I find exhausting and distressing. It feels like bone cancer and it makes my entire body limp. I feel just like my stinky dog, I simply want to lay in my bed and sleep. Small chance that I have bone cancer, big chance that it will get better, but right now it's hurting, just like my dog. I don't have any pain meds at the moment, although I did try some ice cream. It didn't really help.
This is part of the long road God talked about. He has told me about this. This is part of my journey, and I am walking it, I know He is here. But, like my stinky dog, I'm feeling the pain more than the joy right now. I've been told this is not a forever road, and it will be okay.
So, as I wrote about earlier, learning to  walk the long road and speak the unspeakable and live in faith, this is my journey right now. It's another step toward His glory, a step in learning about how to further His Kingdom.
Say That Again, Jesus, You have asked me to come to this place for a reason, so here I am. Now use me, prepare me, and bring me through.

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