When I awoke this morning, I went to my usual place to spend time with God and pray. I had a lot on my mind, but before I could pour out my heart to God, He had a few things to say to me first. We've been wrestling with the same issue for a long time, those of you that read my blog know, I get afraid. I tell you, I bring it to God, He tells me to give it to Him. Around and around we go.....
Don't be afraid, it's in the bible over and over again, 365 times, right? I continually remind myself of that. And, then, something comes up and I feel the fear. I don't always understand where it's coming from, or why I have it, it's just there. And, I'm not even void of peace, if that makes sense. There's just a fear, that I know shouldn't be there, so back to God. As I sat in the stillness of the morning and listened to my God this morning He simply asked me "Why? " To be exact, it went like this: "You have not wanted, child, I have walked beside you and given you light. I have wrapped my Robe around you and put my boots on your feet, my hat and gloves on you, why are you afraid? I am Your Comfort, Your Resolve, I am here all the time for you to come to and I will love and accept you, so why, my dear child, are you afraid? And, when you are with others, I am still with you. I am bound to you, Bethany, knitted to your heart, and breathing within you, just as you are deeply rooted within my heart. My blood is running through your veins, child, we are related. Why are you afraid?
I am your Armor. I am your safeguard. I am your protector. Look at your soul! What do you see? It is pure and safe, fragile and innocent, full of love, because I have been beside you all the way. I have protected the very core of you! I am here still, now, and always. I do as I say I will do. Do not be afraid!
It is resolved, at the cross. Your eternity, your soul's protection. You are mine and only mine. Captured and free to look at life without fear. I am Your Goodness. Go ahead, step into what you see as fear and fly!"
I read Romans 12 just after hearing this from God, and there's a little part in there that says this "The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what he does for us, not by what we are and what we do for him."
Jesus, I know that You have done everything for me. You have brought me into light, into speech, into hope, and courage, and boldness, into YOU. And, you are telling me to stop going back to fear. You have brought so much goodness.
Say That Again. Keep Saying it to me. Push me out of the nest, so I will fly even higher!