Yesterday was a day of packing, and I managed to empty the closet in our spare room. My daughter and son had toys, clothes, and school supplies in this closet. It wasn't super full, it just felt like it when it was time to sort through it and pack it up. I took a nap in the middle of everything, a long one, as my husband continued to pack much of his own stuff. I'm finding that even though there is a lot of progress on our packing project, it seems rather endless. The ability to empty one closet was a sign of hope, maybe this job will end.
When we looked at our new house, the one we are moving to, my husband informed me that the new closet in the master bedroom is actually bigger then the closet we currently own. Hmm, that is good news to me, I like big closets, I find them useful for more than just clothes and shoes. My closet has been the perfect place to hide from loud children when I'm on the phone. It has also come in handy for a quiet place to pray. My closet was used as a mini bedroom for our daughter when we first moved here and she didn't want to sleep alone in her bedroom. It's a great place to be in the morning when I need something to wear and my kids have taken over the bedroom, it's private.
I'm finding treasures as I pack as well, all hidden in the closet. Some things I thought I had lost, they were way back on the shelf. Other things I had just forgotten about, like a canvas painting we purchased years ago in New York City, and a hat I saved that my son use to wear all the time, but grew out of. And, my son's favorite blanket that use to travel with him everywhere. Good things that bring back good memories and put a smile on my face.
During my closet packing and my day I also talked with God about what His plan is. What's next? Is it really time for me to rest in the country at our new home, slow down a little and change my focus? Is it time for an even deeper step into God? What is He asking of me with all these changes, and will it feel okay to me when we've made it out of the deep end of painful changes?
This morning, my prayers have continued and I remembered a verse in Matthew 6:25:
"If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don't fuss about what's on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body."
I then decided to look up the word closet in my bible. There's the one in the KJV that I have often thought about as I am praying in my own closet:
"But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to the Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly."
Today, I am thankful for the big closets I have, and will have! And, as I continue to empty them, sort through stuff, and pack everything up, I am thinking about life and my relationship with God. I'm seeking His truth, choosing to live a life of God-worship, and asking Him to see me and reveal His truth. I'm learning to empty myself into Him, all my stuff on a daily basis. I have found that I want more of Him, and am challenged with sometimes being distracted by wanting more of other treasures. I know He sees my heart, every chamber, and continues to challenge me to empty myself into Him.
Say That Again, Sweet Jesus, You take the contents of all that I am, and You see me. You are the One that teaches me about God-worship, and living empty of self so I can be full of You. Thank you for the gift of big closets, and the treasure of life with You.